I wanted to take everyone down a road that only we women know... I must warn you ... There is a reason only we travel it, because so far it seems as if we are the only ones who can handle it.
You've heard the term... a 6th sense, women's intuition... and then there is a lifetime of knowledge that we have studied not only about ourselves but others.
First let me say that I am not a lesbian for 2 reasons, one is my own beliefs but the other is WOMEN HAVE WAY TOO MUCH DRAMA! I can't imagine trying to compete back and forth every day, now I know not all relationships would be that way, but MY LUCK that's how I would end up. I am an Alpha Female, that should explain enough. Why does this matter?? Well let me explain...
I've given a lot of insight on how the female mind works within a relationship, and how to grow and what might help in different aspects, but I haven't given the nitty gritty and I think this is just as if not the most important information.
As a woman we know a woman's game, and though we or like I myself don't play a game we know that one is there to be played. Just as any real sports fan knows, or any military man knows, you always know just as much about the enemy as your own team.
What I think a lot of men do not understand is that when you speak we do actually listen, and some of us listen to the point that an event has been created that maybe YOU didn't intend to create.
When men and women interact there is always going to be a certain attraction, even if you don't necessarily think there's one, the attraction of physical, emotional, mental features or maybe just simply the attraction of the game... which is natural, it is how God created us. Where things go wrong is when the man has not scouted his opponent, because more than likely within a 20 second window we have already analyzed your stance, mannerisms, and intention, and on that 21st second we've made a decision of how we want to move in.
There are some women who have no other motive than to love the person they are with, to cherish what they have and their intention when meeting someone is genuine, there aren't many of us out there anymore some would think, but there are.
AND THEN... There are the females who take that moment you give them and pounce. No second thought as to what the man really is other than what is portrayed, or what she's assumed his intent is. She see's only her selfish ways without any regard for your every day life.
Think about the girl who was so quick to give you the phone number, the girl who was so quick to meet up... Did she ever ask if you had someone special in your life? Did she ever have interest to know anything about you other than what you were doing later or anything other than some flirtatious baseless conversation? My guess is No...
Now think about the one who you feels bugs you with questions about your day, the one who won't stop asking how you're feeling or what's wrong when she knows you've had a bad day... My guess is you aren't seeing the same person.
There are women and then there are females... When a woman tells you, that something isn't right about a female in your life there is a reason for it. It is NOT because we are jealous, it's because we know our opponents. When we tell you that we know their thought process do not dismiss it as insecurities or jealousy, because 9 times out of 10 we will be able to give you a play by play before it even happens.
In stead of being upset or frustrated with something that you think is just another ridiculous outburst, listen to her and actually take in what she's saying, if she's wrong... then she's wrong but its at least worth listening to if she matters to you. Respect her in the fact that she's concerned and is willing to talk to you about the concerns. Dismissing her and how she feels will only make it worse, be open to her and don't mistake her knowledge for fear.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Lost and Found
I Bowed my head today with thoughts of sadness and an emptiness. The travels that life takes us through had left me feeling lost. I have often wondered why I had been trapped n some of the awful places I have been or why am I doing something that normally I wouldn't do, and then...
I reminisce back on the times I had, I think about the awful moments and I walk down the dark roads that I had traveled and I start to realize that I wasn't traveling them alone. Looking down the dark road I see a bit clearer the further I get. Through every Hard night, dark morning, through every tear there they were, right there with me.
The Night in the park when I felt my innocence being ripped away from me, they were there giving it back to me.
The Nights I cried over broken hearts, they were there to show me a broken heart mends...
The times that seemed as if it couldn't get any worse, yet again there they were, to remind me that its only as bad as I let it be.
How could I not see that, or understand it? Why did I always feel alone if I never really was?
So many times I thought about myself and lost myself in the consumption of my own grief. To forget that the nights I cried my best friend was there to hold my hand and help heal my heart, how could I forget that through it all I was never alone?
As I sat with my head still bowed, I thought about moments I had forgot about; Missed opportunities; Words that had not been said; Visions I wouldn't see, and how to go back to change what I felt should have been. The times I wanted to call but too nervous; The apologies I should have given but too ashamed; The "I Love You's" I should have said but my pride got the best of me....
What do you do when you feel so lost? What do you do when you feel as if it was all in your control and you've let it all pass you by? How do you turn everything around to do the undone?
I lifted my head and let it set in, I thought about the lessons I learned, what I have taken with me through life and though the times were rough I always had a firm landing.
How did you know what I needed to hear? Though I may not have taken it in at that moment it stuck with me and though it was said way back when, the words have stayed relevant even today. How could something said in one moment hold true for another moment? It was so mind boggling to understand how that in one moment in time something said or a hand held a brush of the hair could still be heard and felt in a moment we never knew would exist and then....
I asked myself, How did I not see that you were there with me the entire time? With every person who traveled with me along my way you placed there, I was never alone. Every word spoken was yours, every hand that held mine was yours, every hug, brush of the hair was you. Every late night talk in my time of need was with you, in every friend who lent their shoulder you were there. You always knew what I needed and when I needed it, soothing my soul and healing my heart.
Tonight as I lay my head down I will not think about the things lost but about the life you give me each day and how through you I can do anything because I know that you are always beside me. I can move forward knowing that I am not alone but your love is always with me. Your words will be a thriving force in my life and I will no longer just travel the road that has now been lit, but I will respect the journey that only you trusted I could handle.
I reminisce back on the times I had, I think about the awful moments and I walk down the dark roads that I had traveled and I start to realize that I wasn't traveling them alone. Looking down the dark road I see a bit clearer the further I get. Through every Hard night, dark morning, through every tear there they were, right there with me.
The Night in the park when I felt my innocence being ripped away from me, they were there giving it back to me.
The Nights I cried over broken hearts, they were there to show me a broken heart mends...
The times that seemed as if it couldn't get any worse, yet again there they were, to remind me that its only as bad as I let it be.
How could I not see that, or understand it? Why did I always feel alone if I never really was?
So many times I thought about myself and lost myself in the consumption of my own grief. To forget that the nights I cried my best friend was there to hold my hand and help heal my heart, how could I forget that through it all I was never alone?
As I sat with my head still bowed, I thought about moments I had forgot about; Missed opportunities; Words that had not been said; Visions I wouldn't see, and how to go back to change what I felt should have been. The times I wanted to call but too nervous; The apologies I should have given but too ashamed; The "I Love You's" I should have said but my pride got the best of me....
What do you do when you feel so lost? What do you do when you feel as if it was all in your control and you've let it all pass you by? How do you turn everything around to do the undone?
I lifted my head and let it set in, I thought about the lessons I learned, what I have taken with me through life and though the times were rough I always had a firm landing.
How did you know what I needed to hear? Though I may not have taken it in at that moment it stuck with me and though it was said way back when, the words have stayed relevant even today. How could something said in one moment hold true for another moment? It was so mind boggling to understand how that in one moment in time something said or a hand held a brush of the hair could still be heard and felt in a moment we never knew would exist and then....
I asked myself, How did I not see that you were there with me the entire time? With every person who traveled with me along my way you placed there, I was never alone. Every word spoken was yours, every hand that held mine was yours, every hug, brush of the hair was you. Every late night talk in my time of need was with you, in every friend who lent their shoulder you were there. You always knew what I needed and when I needed it, soothing my soul and healing my heart.
Tonight as I lay my head down I will not think about the things lost but about the life you give me each day and how through you I can do anything because I know that you are always beside me. I can move forward knowing that I am not alone but your love is always with me. Your words will be a thriving force in my life and I will no longer just travel the road that has now been lit, but I will respect the journey that only you trusted I could handle.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder
A tale lived long ago , A dream that was still unknown to me at the time. The Best dreams are the ones that come true without you expecting them.
Music has not only been a passion of mine but the beat is what powers my heart and it syncs with the Melody. Destiny's Child came out with "No No No Pt 1" and I heard simplicity and just this amazing sound, and then followed Pt. 2 which defined the sound that only Destiny's Child can do, and has yet to be duplicated. When "Writings on the Wall" was released, I refused to let anyone touch let alone borrow it.
September came and I remember it like it was yesterday, it was a warm night at the Madera Fair and the only reason I chose to attend that night was because Destiny's Child was playing that night. The ORIGINAL 4 members drove into town and people swarmed the stage area, nobody more excited than I of course. As I walked up I saw an old friend who was there doing operations for the sound and asked if I wanted to meet them........ We all know my answer...
As I walked up to the girls, yes girls because they were only 16-17 at the time, A very young Beautiful Beyonce went to shake my hand and I remember Kelly coming close to me from the right and that was the last thing I remember. As Beyonce went to move forward to me to introduce herself I passed out... I know, I know... TERRIBLE RIGHT! And most people probably think that they went on about their way and some medics came and that was that, the show goes on... Well no, that would be incorrect, because for a medic to come the rescue at the fair you have to practically be bleeding to death so no that was not the case.
I heard voices and a specific voice saying Oh my goodness is she ok, is she alright??! I felt my arms shaking and a couple little slaps to my cheek and as I awoke she was there, and not because I fell literally on top of her feet. As I came to she helped me up and all I did was apologize, I kept looking at my pager (yes pager this was a long time ago) to see what time it was because I just knew I delayed the show; It was about 7:10pm so only 10 minutes late for a 7pm show time. I couldn't believe she was even still there, and not just her but all of the girls. She spoke to me as if I was one of them, talking about show times, wardrobe, mics, how do I sound, I was able to listen to a voice check and before they went on she invited me to pray with them before taking the stage.
People wonder why I am so into her, or obsessed some have said, I get it, its hard for someone to understand, although I do have a fascination with celebrities, I have a reason for every one of them but Beyonce there's a personal admiration for. People can have their opinions and they can hate all they want, the woman has paid her dues and has created not only the most amazing career for herself but the talent she has is beyond what most can even comprehend and there is not a person in this world who will ever be able to deny what she's created and accomplished.
That alone I do not even have to argue because she will ALWAYS speak for herself.
I have been asked if I think she's changed or if she's this or she's that... The way she talked to me 12 years ago and the way she speaks today is exactly the same, her smile is the same and the look in her eyes hasn't changed. I can see a barer of bad fruit within moments of meeting them, not as a judgement but there are just things that a person exudes in character and mannerisms, and so far in life I have not been wrong. At a young age I learned how to read people I can spot a liar a mile away and that woman's spirit is absolutely Beautiful.
When the critics came out with the release of "4" nearing, so many opinions were formed stating that the label was worried and that it was going to be a flop because it wasn't her normal sound... I guess #1 in MULTIPLE COUNTRIES within the first week is a flop... I didn't realize we were speaking in antonyms now.
This album is a new sound, a mixture of old school sounds from the 80's with songs like "Schoolin' Life" "Lay Up Under Me" (on Target's exclusive deluxe edition) songs with a 40's style with songs like "Rather Die Young" and 90's with "Party" "Love On Top" and Bold Ballads that really give you that "live" raw sound that she exudes live and really shows she is not just a Gorgeous face/body, or a dancer this woman proves her voice is her talent and her first love.
She really let down her guard on this album even allowing us to see the love she has for her husband and how she appreciates her marriage, the closest thing to her giving us a tell all interview into their relationship. This has been my favorite album of hers by far.
I have been waiting for something different from someone, and had been listening to a lot lately, it's like she heard my every thought, which is what I hear often from people who listen to her music.
I am excited for what she has to come and will be behind her 100% of the time, too many artists have come and gone, the woman was brought up right and has kept her morals with her on her journey and managed to keep herself classy and in a spot light like there is now I will not be surprised when she is the sole SURVIVOR.
D
Music has not only been a passion of mine but the beat is what powers my heart and it syncs with the Melody. Destiny's Child came out with "No No No Pt 1" and I heard simplicity and just this amazing sound, and then followed Pt. 2 which defined the sound that only Destiny's Child can do, and has yet to be duplicated. When "Writings on the Wall" was released, I refused to let anyone touch let alone borrow it.
September came and I remember it like it was yesterday, it was a warm night at the Madera Fair and the only reason I chose to attend that night was because Destiny's Child was playing that night. The ORIGINAL 4 members drove into town and people swarmed the stage area, nobody more excited than I of course. As I walked up I saw an old friend who was there doing operations for the sound and asked if I wanted to meet them........ We all know my answer...
As I walked up to the girls, yes girls because they were only 16-17 at the time, A very young Beautiful Beyonce went to shake my hand and I remember Kelly coming close to me from the right and that was the last thing I remember. As Beyonce went to move forward to me to introduce herself I passed out... I know, I know... TERRIBLE RIGHT! And most people probably think that they went on about their way and some medics came and that was that, the show goes on... Well no, that would be incorrect, because for a medic to come the rescue at the fair you have to practically be bleeding to death so no that was not the case.
I heard voices and a specific voice saying Oh my goodness is she ok, is she alright??! I felt my arms shaking and a couple little slaps to my cheek and as I awoke she was there, and not because I fell literally on top of her feet. As I came to she helped me up and all I did was apologize, I kept looking at my pager (yes pager this was a long time ago) to see what time it was because I just knew I delayed the show; It was about 7:10pm so only 10 minutes late for a 7pm show time. I couldn't believe she was even still there, and not just her but all of the girls. She spoke to me as if I was one of them, talking about show times, wardrobe, mics, how do I sound, I was able to listen to a voice check and before they went on she invited me to pray with them before taking the stage.
People wonder why I am so into her, or obsessed some have said, I get it, its hard for someone to understand, although I do have a fascination with celebrities, I have a reason for every one of them but Beyonce there's a personal admiration for. People can have their opinions and they can hate all they want, the woman has paid her dues and has created not only the most amazing career for herself but the talent she has is beyond what most can even comprehend and there is not a person in this world who will ever be able to deny what she's created and accomplished.
That alone I do not even have to argue because she will ALWAYS speak for herself.
I have been asked if I think she's changed or if she's this or she's that... The way she talked to me 12 years ago and the way she speaks today is exactly the same, her smile is the same and the look in her eyes hasn't changed. I can see a barer of bad fruit within moments of meeting them, not as a judgement but there are just things that a person exudes in character and mannerisms, and so far in life I have not been wrong. At a young age I learned how to read people I can spot a liar a mile away and that woman's spirit is absolutely Beautiful.
When the critics came out with the release of "4" nearing, so many opinions were formed stating that the label was worried and that it was going to be a flop because it wasn't her normal sound... I guess #1 in MULTIPLE COUNTRIES within the first week is a flop... I didn't realize we were speaking in antonyms now.
This album is a new sound, a mixture of old school sounds from the 80's with songs like "Schoolin' Life" "Lay Up Under Me" (on Target's exclusive deluxe edition) songs with a 40's style with songs like "Rather Die Young" and 90's with "Party" "Love On Top" and Bold Ballads that really give you that "live" raw sound that she exudes live and really shows she is not just a Gorgeous face/body, or a dancer this woman proves her voice is her talent and her first love.
She really let down her guard on this album even allowing us to see the love she has for her husband and how she appreciates her marriage, the closest thing to her giving us a tell all interview into their relationship. This has been my favorite album of hers by far.
I have been waiting for something different from someone, and had been listening to a lot lately, it's like she heard my every thought, which is what I hear often from people who listen to her music.
I am excited for what she has to come and will be behind her 100% of the time, too many artists have come and gone, the woman was brought up right and has kept her morals with her on her journey and managed to keep herself classy and in a spot light like there is now I will not be surprised when she is the sole SURVIVOR.
D
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Two Timing
There are ALWAYS 2 sides to everything, what's most important is to remember that there are always 2 of you in a partnership.
What do you do now that the two of you have come together and it's time to start piecing the puzzle back together??
Many of us wrap ourselves up in the past, though we want to move forward a small part of us holds the past so that it's stuck in the future. One of us blames the other and forgets that, simply because you're so consumed by the others actions. The term "I can forgive but will never forget" .... honestly needs to be deleted from the mind. Forgiveness and Love holds no records of wrongs. It's understandable that one would feel that way, but if you do not trust in the person enough to forget and move on, then maybe you aren't ready for the road you say you want to travel.
There is never only one at fault, It may have started because you think the other did something, but did you ever stop to think that maybe it's because you did something, or that it was because of another reason to which you never cared to ask and NOW you are the one who is being inconsiderate? Always put yourself on the reverse before reacting, tempers have no place in a fight, be it emotional or otherwise. Save the tempers for your own venting sessions, all they will do is make the situations worse and escalate it to a point that you may not be able to come back from.
Words have more power than we may intend, Actions may not ALWAYS speak louder than words, it just depends on how hard the impact is on the other side. Learn to leave the baggage at the door, set all of the issues at the door and decide on whether you're going to walk through it or away from it, Its in or out.
Timing is everything, if you happened to make an outburst, learn to own up to the mistake, suck it up and take it for the team. I cannot reiterate enough that one of you is not above the other, and neither of you have to do anything but love the other. Do not expect someone to do something for you if you aren't willing to truly appreciate it.
This is your life your love... not a game... do not play the payback game, you're not children, things are not always as you see them. Before you let your mind run away remember to check it first, because more than likely its you who has created the problem and not the other way around.
Move on and learn to grow, you're on this path together, feed off of each other and become each other's teacher, there is no better way to grow together than to mend one another and become strong within each other.
What do you do now that the two of you have come together and it's time to start piecing the puzzle back together??
Many of us wrap ourselves up in the past, though we want to move forward a small part of us holds the past so that it's stuck in the future. One of us blames the other and forgets that, simply because you're so consumed by the others actions. The term "I can forgive but will never forget" .... honestly needs to be deleted from the mind. Forgiveness and Love holds no records of wrongs. It's understandable that one would feel that way, but if you do not trust in the person enough to forget and move on, then maybe you aren't ready for the road you say you want to travel.
There is never only one at fault, It may have started because you think the other did something, but did you ever stop to think that maybe it's because you did something, or that it was because of another reason to which you never cared to ask and NOW you are the one who is being inconsiderate? Always put yourself on the reverse before reacting, tempers have no place in a fight, be it emotional or otherwise. Save the tempers for your own venting sessions, all they will do is make the situations worse and escalate it to a point that you may not be able to come back from.
Words have more power than we may intend, Actions may not ALWAYS speak louder than words, it just depends on how hard the impact is on the other side. Learn to leave the baggage at the door, set all of the issues at the door and decide on whether you're going to walk through it or away from it, Its in or out.
Timing is everything, if you happened to make an outburst, learn to own up to the mistake, suck it up and take it for the team. I cannot reiterate enough that one of you is not above the other, and neither of you have to do anything but love the other. Do not expect someone to do something for you if you aren't willing to truly appreciate it.
This is your life your love... not a game... do not play the payback game, you're not children, things are not always as you see them. Before you let your mind run away remember to check it first, because more than likely its you who has created the problem and not the other way around.
Move on and learn to grow, you're on this path together, feed off of each other and become each other's teacher, there is no better way to grow together than to mend one another and become strong within each other.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Division Of Mind's Game
In recent weeks I've been consumed by insomnia; I pray this was the last sleepless night I would have...
As my body falls into a deep sleep, my mind starts to burn the midnight oil with visions that are inconceivable to me in the lucid state.
I run through the field of dreams into a dark land of sub-conscious thoughts; Nothing of the ordinary as I would believe is truth. In one month's time I've experienced my worst nightmares come to life. Inhaling what seems like air but can't take a breath, gasping for life but yet I'm not physically dying.
What seems like Night falls again yet dawn has never come....
Trying to solidify my state of mind I walk further into darkness but not by choice; It's becoming difficult to move forward, I'm being pulled and pushed as I try to find my way.
As I start to push back the resistance stars to release, I can see the dark exit though its not visible. I run as fast as my thoughts will allow, trying to persuade the REM to change the vision I'm shackled to.
The dawn is upon me, as the light begins to break sound does as well ...
Reality is so close.
My heart is light and breath released. I feel love and full of life... I feel relieved, content ....
Mind moving slow and Sharp and vision is clear.
In my left brain I feel at home now and can finally disappear.
~ D
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Trivial Pursuit of A Chivalrous Heart
I recently spent some time reflecting on different things, life in general and how people treat each other... I don't really know how to describe this but disappointment might be the right word...
I'm not sure if this is because I was raised by my grandmother and maybe I have a core that is based around ideas from the 1920's to 1950's where people were treated differently, but the separation between courtesy and disregard is just beyond my thought capacity.
Having an old soul in a new age world can definitely be difficult but it can also be refreshing...
I have always ... ALWAYS, thought that Love should always come first and with that Love comes trust respect and admiration, what happened to that? What happened to the Men who not only opened doors for women but opened their hearts and lives to them as well??
I always hear well she emasculates me, or they want to be independent they can take care of themselves, or she didn't do what I needed.
First thing is first.... As a Strong VERY Independent woman, there is nothing I want more in my life than a man who can handle that and who can appreciate my strength. I've grown with a strong mentality because at a young age it was just me, and though I may have had my Grandmother, I was always afraid one day it would just be me... So I taught myself to be self sufficient which some may dub as controlling, I call it survival. I am not a feminist, I don't prefer life without men, A man saved me, I would be nowhere without him; I realize that sometimes it may be hard to see that, but its even more difficult for me to clarify it in the moment.
When it comes to Nurture vs. Nature, I will always side with Nurture because you see, coming from what I did, if it was about Nature then my life would be totally different, I would be prone to drug abuse, bad decisions and poor judgment, except for the fact that My Grandmother raised me to be nothing but the opposite, to not just know my right from wrongs but to live by them. As I lived my life around what I was taught I learned that taking care of yourself was not a bad thing, being a strong willed person was not only ok but SMART.
I know that at times a strong willed woman mixed with an Alpha Male can sometimes clash and there is nothing wrong with that, as long as you know the medium to meet at.
Try to learn her story, actions are not always as they appear and neither are facades.
Ladies... Yes we are in a new era and we may see our selves superior in certain situations but know the situation you're in and think before acting... A man will still awlays want to feel like he's the provider and being submissive to you is not exactly something that brightens their day. With that said... Men, Do not ever feel like she can't help you, or that if she does it makes you any less than what you feel you should be. A partnership is between TWO people which means that if one is down the other steps in to pull it together.
Everyone thinks that relationships are so hard when really it's jut how individuals decide to approach a situation that does not involve individuals but a team. You each provide something in the relationship, whether it being a friend to one another, it be financially or just simply an emotional stability, you're each others' partner for life, you're meant to learn and draw from each other so paint the picture.
~ D
Friday, June 24, 2011
Beautifully Bold
Today I want to take this time to point something out...
It's something that said everyday in the sense that "this is how you should be" when it comes to being politically correct, but in reality; People need to stop being so wrapped up in what others think of them ... However as I know as most of us do, sometimes that's a lot easier said than done...
A friend of mine who is absolutely in love with makeup, so much that she decided to become a freelance artist for so many reasons, but mainly the beauty in the art of it. I myself am just a fan of painting my face! Well she introduced me to this absolutely amazing woman and the fact that I myself wasn't aware of who she was really made me feel like I had been completely lost in the world of makeup...
When you meet a person with such a sweet and pure heart, they produce a lot of the same people around them, a lot like barers of good fruit; My friend (Zarah) had contacted me one night and asked a favor from me, which of course I had no problem with, and at this moment I was introduced to The Beautiful Kandee Johnson.
Kandee had basically been attacked by accusations against her and her skills and qualifications... Once I heard what was going on, I was infuriated because as a HUMAN BEING and a caring person to hear what she had been told and what she was going through I was truly outraged. I gave her some advice and to this day am so honored that simple little me could be there for not only such a good person but this amazing talent ...
When you become successful, with that comes a lot of things that when you're striving for such success, we don't really get as far as to prepare for the extra or the bad and the ugly so to speak.
This woman is such an amazing talent and for those of you in the makeup world you already know not only who she is but how amazing her talent is.
With this year's IMATS (International Makeup Artist's Trade Show) approaching in Los Angeles, which I am really upset I am not attending...Kandee will be speaking on Sunday so for all of you whom are there CONGRATULATIONS because a woman who Billy B admires will be giving you all some knowledge as you leave IMATS. In case you are not aware of whom Billy B is, well I'm sure if you've watched or seen any spreads of Lady GaGa you might have an inkling as he is the makeup artist who has created her most fierce looks. I know I know, if you know me I am not a fan of hers for my own personal reasons but that doesn't mean I can't admire his absolute amazing work. Anyway, back to my point...
On the eve of IMATS I was wallowing in my self pity because I'm missing such an amazing opportunity, I decided to watch Kandee's youtube tutorials
(which can bee seen here)
I came across this video...
As you can see it's lengthy but it was definitely worth the watch for sure...
As I was watching I started thinking to myself... Not only does she have so much courage but then I thought... It makes me sick that she feels that she needs to make one like this...
People can be so heartless, and cruel... I myself have created a very rough exterior because of a life I've lead and what I've gone through, not to mention some of the people I allowed to be in my life because I used to be so trusting. There was a period in my life where I was well "known" by certain groups and while I thought I had many friends, quickly as things that I had been a part of my whole life had become more popular, so did the people who thought there wasn't enough room for anyone but them, which led to a lot of drama and negativity.
I chose to take the higher road because it was going to be the only way to keep myself sane, and with my temper passion and pride that was NOT easy to do. I started to "go on record" about things said about me and make it known that the people who were against me had nothing better to do than create a life for them self based off of me... What a life right??? I can't even imagine.
I finally realized it didn't matter what I said because those who were already consumed by their own thoughts were lost in them and it was a lost cause. In stead I continued to do what I do, pick myself up and continue to succeed at being me. I learned quickly that by feeding the animals they continue to come back so I decided to let them starve.
Though I would like World Peace, that just isn't a world that we live in, but what we can do is worry about ourselves because at the end of the day we are the only ones we can control.
I would hope that everyone will do them selves a huge favor and get to know Kandee as she is beyond a makeup artist but a gorgeous soul. If you will be at IMATS please stop and listen to her story and techniques you will not be disappointed, I use her tricks every day and try to keep her happy spirit with me through out my day as well.
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You can find Kandee at...
http://www.youtube.com/user/kandeejohnson
www.Kandeej.com
Her Personal Blog
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