Monday, August 20, 2012

The Moment, You Own It.

           Lose yourself in the music the moment you own it, you better never let it go, you only get one shot......
That line used to mean so much and its amazing how time can change the meanings to things that once were so important. I've come so far in the last 10 years, I've experienced love, I've started the path to reaching my dreams and I've felt heartbreak along the way. I won't ever regret the pain I've endured because though at the time I didn't realize it, it has really opened my eyes and made me realize that I'm a force to be dealt with. Often times we think we're stuck in a rut while trying to achieve our goals, but it takes just ONE person, and often the last person we'd expect to  show you exactly what you achieved and resent you for it.
I struggled with this for years, years that I can't change, not that I would, only to have opened my mind to realize that I was on the path that was eventually leading me exactly where I envisioned.

The last few years have been quite a blur for me, and as someone who needs control of her life, that has probably been the worst feeling known to me ever. The most recent years have really given me time to reflect and make sense of what I couldn't sort out before.
Trying to make sense of what someone SAYS or PORTRAYS from what you really know, that's not the easiest thing to come to terms with. The people you let in are the ones who you hold with the utmost honor, Trust. I am a very open person when it comes to most things, but there are certain things I protect with everything that I am, and that includes people.
For those who haven't had the opportunity to sit down and get to know me, I like to give everyone fair warning... I always have a secret weapon stored away if ever needed, intuition, instinct and the ability to know "Bull Street" when I hear/see it. If you think I believe you're in the car, when I can clearly hear the acoustics of a room around you ... I'm pretty sure I can assess the surroundings...

I  know I'm ready to embrace this adult I've become, I haven't been a child since I was about 12 and I'm not about to turn back now, and those in my life need to have the same frame of mind, because they say, you are the company you keep.

Opportunity comes once in a life time .....