Wednesday, April 24, 2013
I know.... It's been a while...
I've been working diligently on my book as well as the new chapter in my life... As I've mentioned before I have made the decision to be baptized in July, trying to make arrangements and focus on the book have been number 1 priorities. In the midst of all of this, I have seen my world practically crumble all at once.
I was left feeling lost, out of place and out of sorts. Everything I've ever known is not the same, and everything I've ever believed in is now being tested. It's amazing the amount of strength one has when they feel like nothing is left. A lot of people may take that moment and give up, I on the other hand became the mother whose child was stuck under a burning car. My mind went into survival mode, shut everything off, set everything aside and PUSH.
It's safe to say that 2013 did NOT start off the way 2012 did that's for sure. I have come far enough in this life to understand that NOTHING is by coincidence, nothing is by chance rather by divine intervention. God's plan is never just about us, it's a combined effort. WE have our idea and he has his, we can hope the two coincide with each other but I've found that ... All my GREAT big dreams and goals were nothing compared to what he sees in me, I was really selling myself short, and believe me when I say I was aiming pretty high in those goals. The problem with my goals were, they were only about ME. I have sat here and written about so many different relationship issues, spoke about how selfish people can be and how that can ruin a relationship... Never realizing that in my own relationship with God, I was being selfish, but once I did I could see how I was selling myself short.
I continue to learn more about myself and where my faith is going every day, and with it my life.
I'm not here to shove my beliefs down your throat, that's not me. I have had a moment of clarity, I have them a lot more often than I used to. My life is changing and its happening so fast, that all of the things that irritate me, that try and hold me back almost don't even effect me any longer. I am beyond happy and ready to bring all of the good news that follows. Until we meet again...
Posted by Di Jax at 9:41 PM