Finally Freed

As long as I can remember, Grandma has always been my saving grace... Because of her I had a life, a childhood...  Because of her I know what my future will be. When nobody wanted me, she did, when I felt like I was no one, she made me someone....
And now I feel the tables have turned....

I have been waiting for the perfect time to tell my story, I figured it would be best for the book, I mean, they say that's where you pull people in... Mass production and $$$$ but today, I knew... Today was the day... No money, no oooh ahhh shock value... This is meant to shed some light on things in hopes that it allows...

In my last post I asked... How do you give the information without making it sound like some kind of movie... It didn't dawn on me then but now is the time....
I've always lived this life with questions and expectations even as a child, always feeling like there was something more, more than me.
When I was five years old, my Grandma and I were going through old pictures... There was a picture of my Mother, she was about Twenty-Four years old and my Grandma started to tell me about my conception... I know, I know... Odd that my Grandma would know that and share it with me at such a young age... Except it's not what you think...
When my mother was young she was born without the shut off from her bladder to her urethra, which meant that she would need to wear a urine bag her entire life. Along with this, she was also born without a uterus, fallopian tubes, and ovaries, with no chance to ever have children.
My Grandma was distraught, questioning how a child can be born this way...  My Aunt who was heavily into church told my Grandma to go to church and have her prayed for, except that at this time Grandma wasn't as into church as she is now so this wasn't a instant reaction for her.  She prayed, knelt down by her bed and prayed, prayed for Jesus to heal her baby girl, and that night my mother came in and told her she needed to use the restroom...

Grandma took her straight to the doctor and sure enough her bladder was normal, she had taken nothing for this, no surgeries were done, it was just healed, with no explanation from the doctors. While this was now in tact, her reproductive organs were not. It wasn't until 42 weeks before my birth that she would find out that she was no longer baron.

 From the few people who know this about me, know that I tend to keep this to myself unless it needs to be known, I tend to get weird looks (as if I had anything to do with it) a multitude of questions, accusations against it... I'm sure you can imagine... However, the one reason why I don't tend to say anything is because I tend to get some who use the word miracle and take it way too far...
I am here to tell you that YES I am a miracle, I don't deny the power he has to change things miraculously in the blink of an eye, the issue I have is trying to make people understand that I am nothing more than a product of his grace and power, an example, someone to share his glory and to bare witness to this.

For the last 20 years, I haven't had a relationship with my mother because, she isn't the woman God created, she's distorted by years of drug use and bad decisions, with no responsibility for her actions... In recent years I tried to make amends with her, to reconcile. I have forgiven her actions against me, however the love that a daughter should have for her mother is long gone. I started noticing the actions, mannerisms, the way she would speak, it wasn't normal, people just don't act the way she does...
It was recently I started noticing an odd pattern with her, the last year, the times I would visit my Grandma, the feeling I get there is very unwelcoming, if i weren't a strong person by nature it probably would have really scared me...
I could never understand what I did, as a child what was it about me that she didn't want me... She gave me over to my Grandma when I was just 6 months old, my Grandfather asked for her to leave me with Grandma so that she could have a chance to change her life, she did without any hesitation. As I grew up, even though she would be around from time to time, it was like she was forced to spend time with me, felt nothing like a mother and child bond.
It wasn't until recently that I finally understood...

For years I prayed for God to make Grandma move with me up North, and one day... Grandma's water well went dry, and after estimates and information,  it looked like drilling a new well was not an option, and practically financially impossible. God Finally set it in motion.... I just had to wait out the winter for the water to completely run dry and she would be here.
On Sunday I get a call from my Grandfather, just so that he could tell me that he sent her the money to drill deeper... It was like everything God had granted was just ripped out from under me. I immediately felt Satan all around it. My "Mother" called my Grandfather and said everything she could to make him feel guilty enough to pay for a new well.
I felt lost, empty and defeated until tonight.

Everything, every last question, I have an answer... While for so long I thought I had one, it was merely one answer leading me to THE answer...

I have spent the last twenty years with a feeling of anger and resentment consuming me, not able to forgive... Forgiveness... The one thing left that would keep me out of Heaven...

Could it have been Satan all along? Could he have been the one who made her baron, simply because he knew she would give birth to me? Is this why she is the way she is towards my Grandmother, because my Grandmother is the one who instilled God into my life?
I could never understand why she treated me the way she did, why she was always so against me...
Until tonight.

For the first time in my life, I could hear the fear in my Grandma's voice. She has always been my guarantee, my way of knowing that Heaven is real and how I know that paths are set. But tonight, it wasn't until I heard the fear in her voice that I knew how real everything really was. I know Heaven is real, I know Satan is more real now than he has ever been and in that moment I became safe. I knew then that Jesus saved me simply by having me tell my Grandmother this exact same thing. She cried, not because she was afraid any longer but because she knew that she was safe and that He has not left her and that she now knows what she needs to do to make sure she's as close to Jesus as she's ever been...

I never thought that I would be saving her. And Never would I think that I would be sitting here praying for my Mother to be saved. But I Am...

Having a relationship that I've had with Jesus for as long as I've had, I didn't think anything would surprise me because I believe in everything that he is, yet he continues to amaze me with how he works in me.
Just as with Jesus, Satan's objectives and the power he has is just as real, the weak and the strong would waver in the presence of this, but my faith is everlasting and know my place among the father in his Kingdom.

I've made this sound like another epic storyline, except for the fact that this isn't a "What's going to happen"  This is my testimonial as to what has already happened ...

If you have ever once spoken to me then you know, that my faith in God is as strong as it can be, that I can attest to his miracles and his blessings; If you haven't ever spoke to me, I ask you not to believe me, but to seek him out and he will show you your own blessings...

'Walk by Faith, Not by Sight"

 

A Tale As Long As Time

Today I opened my Google Sky Map and sure enough the newest constellation pops up in the exact position I was aiming it, and when I noticed the position was facing the ground it really had me interested in the hype everyone has recently found in this 13th constellation.

Most have always had a hard time understanding me, how can someone be so religious and superstitious at the same time?

Because I do find a lot of interest in the Zodiac does not necessarily make me superstitious; The stars have always been a hobby of mine, I have always been fascinated by the story they tell...

Story you say? Yes... A Story... and a very revealing one at that.

As a young child My Grandmother read the Bible to me every night and I loved the stories she would tell through them, which for most parents is where I think they go wrong when it comes to the subject of God. Instead of telling me word verbatim she made it so I would understand in the form of a bed time story, more than likely the reason I've been able to retain it for this long.

One Night on my first camping trip, I experienced the same camping story Im sure every boy and girl scout hears, about Ursa Major and Minor and for me it resembled my Grandmothers Bible Bed Time Stories, and maybe paved the way for my Hobby that has turned into much more than a hobby...obsession is more of an accurate name for it.

As a Teenager and Young Adult I started to find myself noticing consistencies and resemblances in a lot of the stories from the Bible and in Astrology (the study of Stars) which is different than Astronomy ( the law of the stars) -which i found many inconsistencies-

For those whom are "Religious" most of us have favorite books in which we like to read in the bible, I am no different, My favorite book to read is Revelations for the simple fact that I am fascinated with God's plan.

Matthew 24:43 But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into.

Matthew 24:44 So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.

Clearly Matthew has given a clear warning and Revelations depicts the signs to warn you the time is near, (Natural disasters, Technology, epic tragedies...)

As I laid on my lawn one night I looked up and remembered the stories that were told...

- Orion Is known as the hunter; In Greek and Roman Myths Orion was killed by a Giant Scorpion (scorpio) While chasing Pleiades (were the seven daughters of the titan Atlas and the sea-nymph Pleione born on Mount Cyllene. They are the sisters of Calypso, Hyas, the Hyades, and the Hesperides. The Pleiades were nymphs in the train of Artemis, and together with the seven Hyades were called the Atlantides, Dodonides, or Nysiades, nursemaids and teachers to the infant Bacchus.)

Orion is mentioned 3 times throughout the Bible-

The Bible mentions Orion three times: Job 9:9 ("He is the maker of the Bear and Orion"), Job 38:31 ("Can you loosen Orion`s belt?"), and Amos 5:8 ("He who made the Pleiades and Orion"). In ancient Aram, the constellation was known as Nephila, Orion's descendants were known as Nephilim.

Which leads me to the point of this entire entry...

Ophiuchus- The Serpent Holder

He is said to restore the constellation Orion to life after he sets in the west as Scorpio rises in the East...

The Story is that As Orion is wounded and sets in the west, Scorpio rises in the east to reign over his victoryhowever the next evening as Scorpio sets in the west Ophiuchus stands above Scorpio and stomps him to death and with that Ophiuchus will give Orion the elixir and restores Orion to Life, allowing Orion to rise in the East as both Ophiuchus and Scorpio set in the west...

Considering that this constellation is at the center of both the divine cross in the heavens, formed by the galactic equator and the ecliptic, and the terrestrial mundane cross formed by the equinoxes this is quite a serious omission especially since these two crosses align every 13,000 years and are about to do so once more in 2012

Key Attributes that describe the Sign of Ophiuchus to pay attention to:

• interpreter of dreams, premonitions
• serpent holder
• the number twelve holds great significance
• foresight to benefit from hard times
• The constellation of Ophiuchus is the only sign of the Zodiac which is linked to a real man. This man lived in ancient Egypt around the 27th century BC, and his name was Imhotep. The attributes of Imhotep can also be found in the Biblical Hebrew man Joseph, son of Jacob.. Imhotep is credited with many accomplishments including the knowledge and use of medicine. It is said of Imhotep that he brought the art of healing to mankind.The symbol of a serpent

I have always believed that God gives gifts to those who he believes will do his work, I also believe he gave us his son so that we could all be saved. I took that and the knowledge that I've gathered from the bible and my own obsessions and started to put 2 and 2 together...

My Grandmother told me almost 8 years ago that the Lord was coming... and soon... "Honey... watch the signs, he's telling us to prepare, he's getting us ready for the Beginning no not the end, because for those who have chosen him its the beginning... "

These predictions of the world ending in 2012 and the newest of May 2011 mean nothing to me because as it's stated... Of the day and hour we will not know, He is coming when we least expect it...

Do I think this whole new zodiac is a quack or some ploy to get people surging the internet sites boosting profits, its possible people may be exploiting it for that purpose but ... still true in its origin...

As Humans we often see things and leave it at face value, words, events, statements, faces...

But to me the way I see this is...

For those who see the text

For you will not know the day and time of my arrival, you will know by the signs of the time that the time is near

I take that not to mean so much of just the disasters that have been occurring, although those are definitely his wake up calls, Im looking closer, im reading between the lines...

God made everything that is... Including the Universe, he set every star in its place for his purpose, maybe to tell his story...

I believe in the "Zodiac" because I believe God made the universe, because I believe he has left his legacy, his map, HIS WORD for everyone to see, to find, to uncover.

While Scientists love to tear the bible apart and its origins and so forth, the universe is one thing that cant be altered, one thing that cant be forged, the ONE THING THAT IS THE PURE EXISTENCE OF SCIENCE'S BEING... and if the universe is in fact incorrect then everything science is based on is wrong also.

PONDER THAT FOR A MOMENT

Alright now that we've established that...

To me this looks as if God has sent his latest prophet/angel down to get the attention of those who have been missing the signs that have been in front of them since THE EXISTENCE OF TIME.

That's right -THE SIGNS-... THE CELESTIAL SIGNS!

I know some people are going to read this and think I'm nuts, put me in the category with people who believe in aliens, lochness monster, the guy who carries a cross down the street, the people who believe in 2012, etc. But... when you look at the story that is being told in the sky you can see that the story is almost at its end to set the new beginning...

- "Watch for the sign in the late hour"-

This "13th sign" didn't just pop out of no where, it wasnt just created all of a sudden... this constellation has been in the sky just as long as the rest, but its just now that this is being discovered? Nothing God has created is random, nor was it created to never be discovered.

The natural disasters as of late have knocked the Earth off of its original axis which changes the time of day...

-Matthew 24:22 And except those days should be shortened, there should no flesh be saved: but for the elect's sake those days shall be shortened.

Matthew 24:24 For false Christs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and miracles to deceive even the elect--if that were possible

Ophiuchus has the characteristics as another "character" that was cast out ...

If you look at the way the stars align you may find the similarities of the stories quite profound..

Libra sits to the right of Ophiuchus showing the balance of power, As he holds the serpent who represents temptation and allows Orion to come back from the dead...

If I read the signs right or even just humor the idea what I see is that the Anti-christ is upon us and is laying the ground work for Armageddon...

Depending on your religious preferences (or lack of) you may interpret these things differently or may think this entire post is ridiculous... Which is fine... Not everyone will be a believer, that is the characteristic of free will... that's the balance of power, and what the fight for souls is all about.

As I said... the signs, story map to heaven has been there since the beginning of time... a new chapter has just been revealed...

-D